Something Beautiful; A Contradiction.

i want some froyo.

2010-10-21T11:11:00.001+08:00

2010iscoolerthan2009and2011ownsyourass.

2010-10-21T10:44:00.003+08:00

Again, I like that this thing has died and been forgotten.

The last post here, apart from fuckoffjoseph was around this time last year, and its pretty amazing to think back and realise how much has happened and changed since then.

Idk, I find this blogging thing weird now. My thoughts are my own and its strange when you know others will/can read them. I guess that explains all my nonsensical blog ramblings.

So much has happened, and so much has changed.

For the better i hope.
And although things aren't where I want them to be right now, I pray and hope that a year from now, when I come back here, I will be where I want to be.

DONT DELETE?

2010-08-05T22:32:00.000+08:00

fuck off joseph, stop stalking me.

iloveyou.

blogging

2009-10-23T12:15:00.001+08:00

blogging is stupid.
blogging is dumb.
blogging is a good way to procrastinate
blogging is bad
i don't even blog sensible things for that matter
b-log. bl-og. blo-g.

WOOFWOOF

2009-10-16T13:36:00.000+08:00

2009-10-04T18:48:00.000+08:00

AYE YOU!

anws, berns, saw your list of trips. HOW ABOUT COMBINING ALL.

not that easy.

2009-09-17T11:45:00.002+08:00

I'm scared.

shh.

2009-09-14T20:15:00.000+08:00

like.. whoa. (:

barney the dianosaur said

2009-09-07T23:36:00.000+08:00

you fool.

moomoothecow.

2009-09-04T21:52:00.000+08:00

it's been a good day.

girls night out

2009-08-29T10:07:00.002+08:00

Girls night out got trashed and over ridden! :(

Haha. Still had an interesting night though. :D Did a lot of walking, in heels, the 3 of us. painful much. with sam.

wanted to go to timbre, but it was too crowded
so the rest met us at harrys. food!

harrys
shisha.
zirca.
tired.

dada!! ;p

2009-08-24T17:25:00.003+08:00

Saya ingin untuk pergi universitas. Sekarang!

:(

Saya tata bahasa sangat salah!!

SAYA MENYERAH!! hahahahaha ;p
Maaf Ibu!

pantant.

2009-08-23T10:12:00.001+08:00

YOU ARE A FOOL!
IDIOT
ASS!
hahahah
:D

all the metaphors and lies.

2009-08-23T09:55:00.002+08:00

It's one little screw up after another
One step after another
I'm the one screwing myself over

I'm changing who i am,
Filling myself with empty lies

Alone in a crowded room.
Thats the right phrase.

Need to find balance.
Lots and lots of it.
I'm not a screwup.
No i'm not.

my love is vengence.

2009-08-22T12:06:00.003+08:00

Hello.

I like how hardly anyone comes here. I don't really know why i blog here, but i guess its just something for me to do.

It's something to fill time, to entertain myself with.
It sucks being sort of the only child and being alone.

There's something that i've been thinking about a lot lately
and i dont know how to describe it.
but you'll never know
because it's just gonna end in heartbreak.

cause the sex is so much better when you're mad at me

2009-08-21T23:58:00.000+08:00

hinder <3
(:

and the hearts all in it

2009-08-21T22:49:00.000+08:00

you don't know.

smiles.

2009-08-20T19:29:00.000+08:00

things that make me smile

2009-08-20T11:14:00.004+08:00

My sweetie is sleeping now.
He's all curled up and snuggled and i can't help but smile.
He looks so sweet sleeping, eyes closed and body all tucked in.
He's snuggled on top of a teeshirt of mine.

Ohoh. He just moved.
My baby looks so sweet. (:

moomoothecow

2009-08-20T08:59:00.004+08:00

Hello world. I just woke up.

LETS DO SOME MATH!

Starting from the week of August 24th
There will be 10 weeks till the exams.

10 weeks + 3weeks of exams= 13 weeks till its all over

Study break is 3 weeks from the week of 12th October
As of now, not counting the today and tomorrow, we have 1 more week of mocks
We have 1 week of holidays right after our mocks.

During our real exams, we wont be like in school, well kinda, but we come and go according to our papers

Time left in school = 10 weeks - 1 week mocks - 1 week September holiday - 3 week study break
= 6 weeks
= 1 month and 2 weeks

SO FOLKS, WE'VE OFFICIALLY GOT ONLY A MONTH AND A HALF LEFT OF ACTUAL LESSON OR SCHOOL TIME.

Thats 1 month and 2 weeks left for our teachers to teach us all the shit there is left to know
Thats 1 month and 2 weeks left for our TOK presentations and Revision
Thats 1 month and 2 weeks left of lessons together
1 month and 2 weeks left of laughing and goofing off in class together
1 month and 2 weeks left of sitting beside each other in class, talking, discussing work, writing notes to one another, and well..listening in class together
That, ladies and gentlemen, is what we have left officially of us.
The end of what we begun last January

1 and a half more months of being an actually community

During study leave, holidays and exams, we'll all be absorbed in our own thing, mugging etc.
It's exciting that it's all coming to an end, all the studying, working, IA-ing.
But then again.. the ride is coming to an end! :(

On a brighter note, it's only 13 weeks till it's all over.
Only 3 months and a week.
Thats gonna pass really fast.

And when it's all over..... :D:D:D
we can do whatever the hell we want!

rainbow

2009-08-19T21:39:00.002+08:00

HEY THIS THING NEEDS
COLOUR

jeezyobegeez.

2009-08-19T21:31:00.002+08:00

Time for a change of a blogskin.

I loved the one i had before but i felt like it was a time for a change.
It sucks now that this is one that i got off somewhere and not totally customized but hey.
I tweeked it here and there so i guess it's not that bad. Thanks though weijie, i loved the one before. I kept it so i'll probably use it again next time. :D yay chemmy! :D

Exams now, they've been okay, but i've been lazy. The worst ones have been physics and math, but hey whats new.

I will never be a physicist or a mathematician.
Then again, i will never be a chemist or economist ever either.
And can you imagine me a chinese linguist?

i'm feeling funny. how about you?

hoochie coochie

2009-07-30T11:28:00.001+08:00

HAHAHAHAH! :D

hello berns.
So how?
Chicken? pukpukpuhkkkKEEEHHHH?
or cluck cluck?

idk.

HEHEHE

2009-07-26T17:16:00.002+08:00

Just studying is so much fucking easier.

why can't we just bloody concentrate on mugging for the exams now.
i would totally love to mug now.
and not have to worry about all the other bloody assessments 24/7
i want to mug.
i w-a-n-t t0 M-U-G

ah god.

and university apps are really messy too.
i wish school, exams, university apps and life were like a Mac with expose and spaces.

obsessed

2009-07-22T22:01:00.003+08:00

So i realise that i am largely an obsessive person.

I obsess about stupid things, like people or objects or clean feet!
Obsessing over random things seems to be my method of escape. But thats not good, because what i should truly be obsessing about is exactly what im obsessing to get away from; work.

Thats probably my problem with facebook.
Firstly, it's addictive.
Secondly, it's the perfect time waster and escape.
Yes, i think i'm obsessed over facebook.
I don't play random games on facebook
or take random quizes on it everyday
But i do somehow find myself on it almost every 10minutes while i'm at my computer.
I tell myself, no. no facebook, and ten minutes later i find it open again..

i shall deactivate my fb account this weekend. :( (my heart is already breaking)

screw it.
i need to stop obsessing over pointless things and start obsessing over work.

god help me.

alex, what is the time?

2009-07-21T22:31:00.002+08:00

feeling mega-ly screwed up.
i need to fix myself.
seriously.

2009-07-21T20:26:00.001+08:00

Hello Berns.
Hello Matthew.

I love you guys. (:

nihaozaijian!

2009-07-10T12:29:00.000+08:00

Charissa ♥ says: (12:26:21 PM)
haha hello ty!
♥ EDWWWIIN approaching normal says: (12:26:33 PM)
hellogoodbye
Charissa ♥ says: (12:26:44 PM)
nihaozaijian!
Charissa ♥ says: (12:26:48 PM)
lets form a band
Charissa ♥ says: (12:26:59 PM)
we can be the cheena version of hellogoodbye
♥ EDWWWIIN approaching normal says: (12:27:36 PM)
HAHHA
♥ EDWWWIIN approaching normal says: (12:27:46 PM)
but all their songs are more or less bullshit
♥ EDWWWIIN approaching normal says: (12:27:56 PM)
esp the hello karisa how i miss ya
Charissa ♥ says: (12:27:57 PM)
we can make cheenaversions of bullshit music then!
♥ EDWWWIIN approaching normal says: (12:28:00 PM)
thats the most bullshit
Charissa ♥ says: (12:28:01 PM)
we'll be famous!
Charissa ♥ says: (12:28:02 PM)
EH!
♥ EDWWWIIN approaching normal says: (12:28:10 PM)
HAHAHAHAHA
Charissa ♥ says: (12:28:10 PM)
we can make a HELLO CHARISSA HOW I MISS YOU!
Charissa ♥ says: (12:28:11 PM)
:P
Charissa ♥ says: (12:28:14 PM)
HAHAHAHAH OMGOMGOMG!

wholegrain!

2009-07-10T11:38:00.000+08:00

The guy looks deranged.
GO KOKOKRUNCH! :D

THE BLOG.

2009-07-09T23:38:00.001+08:00

Yeah baby.
The blog.
I love random moments of returning to this forsaken thing and looking back at old times. Reading and then thinking back on where i was in those periods of time. I guess that's the beauty of this thing, except for the fact that i don't really like people poking around in my life, which is why i stopped posting in this thing. I guess it's okay periodically. When everyone thinks it's dead and..SURPRISE!

;p

Today was interesting.
I got woken up by some smartypants in the morning.
I couldn't sleep again last night, which meant i had LESS SLEEP THAN I WANTED!
But all is good, the day turned out pretty nicely. (:

Thank you fp.

I tried to do work today, but we all know how that went.
I have been less than productive this holiday and that has not been a very good thing.

The month has been very eventful and an amazing breath of fresh air as compared to what was before. It's the best I've had in awhile and for that i am grateful.

School is going to start, and i can definitely wait for that to happen. I can wait long long.

<3

2009-06-15T18:01:00.002+08:00

Normand

I MISS YOU

happy chinese new year, away from home.

2009-01-28T09:21:00.003+08:00

The Temperature went from 42 degrees celsius to 16.5 degrees in a single afternoon..

The scary cliff

Okay, so now i'm back. In school at the moment. Supposed to be doing a chem IA.
Yes, i know that no one comes here anymore, and thats all good.
But its still fun when you know...you remember some random persons "semi-dead" blog and you just choose to wing a visit, the viola! there is something there!

Surprises are fun. I like them
Yes. Bumbum, that was referred to you!

breaking walls

2008-12-16T23:04:00.003+08:00

So, i got back from Ipoh yesterday morning.

The one week there was amazing. It really was way better than i had expected it to be. The company and all the people there was awesome. It was weird being the only girl in the Sg Delegation, but the guys were awesome.

(:

Thanks to John, John, Gab, Brij, Yamani, Jason, Caleb, Weijin, Simon, Swee Woon and Brandon for taking care of me and making the entire trip so wonderful.

I miss the week already.

IPOH!

poop.

2008-10-20T11:43:00.002+08:00

The art of killing a blog
To kill a blog, you must follow a set of very strict rules.
Firstly you must cease to blog.
after which people just stop coming here, because there is nothing to see.
Now, after awhile people will forget the existence of the poor forlorn blog.
And tadaa! you've killed the blog.

I'm in India btw.

2008-10-10T16:38:00.000+08:00

DIE BLOG DIEEE!!!!!

2008-09-29T18:31:00.001+08:00

HAKUNA MATATA

cambodia

2008-09-08T20:31:00.004+08:00

Pursat

2008-09-02T17:16:00.002+08:00

So we're in Cambodia now.
Me, Carmen, Hilda, Chris and Sam.

Pursat, keovmony village.
damn. im too tired to type everything out. as usual, i shall just post pictures up when we're back.

in some random cyper cafe now.

its really cool, i feel like i've travelled back in time. the roads and all..

pictures soon.

with a cherry on top

2008-08-17T17:54:00.003+08:00

I hate feeling like there is no escape. I hate thinking about the crappy road ahead. I hate the way you feel when you realise that everything is falling apart bit by bit.

I want to be alone, and i dont at the same time. It's tiring to keep caring about what other people think and feel. Its tiring to feel the jab of pain when you hear people criticize. Even when it's meant to help. Social interaction equates to a lot of pain. Sometimes it'd be easier to curl up into a dark corner and never ever come out. To run away and live with a dog named peekaboo or buster (heehee).

If only we could all be selfish and only care about how we felt.
I wish we could just skip all the crappy bits of life.

and screw school.
school sucks.

I wish i didn't have to care. We should all move to San Francisco and become hippies or to Australia and become beach bums.

Gavin Menzies

2008-08-05T20:43:00.000+08:00

IB is interesting.

I've never done so much research in my life.

i swear.

Asean Dance

2008-08-03T10:54:00.003+08:00

2008-07-28T16:44:00.000+08:00

Trying hard not to hear
But they talk so loud
Their piercing sounds fill my ears
Try to fill me with doubt
Yet I know that the goal
Is to keep me from falling

But nothing's greater
Than the rush that comes with your embrace
And in this world of loneliness
I see your face
Yet everyone around me
Thinks that I'm going crazy, maybe, maybe

But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

jeee!

2008-07-28T16:34:00.000+08:00

i love you.

:)

2008-07-13T19:51:00.001+08:00

let me tell you just one thing, that you really need to know
that is, that i missed you
well it's a very very simple thing,
from the bottom of my heart,
to tell you, that i love you

i write this song just for you, filled with cheesy words and
an unoriginal tune
i know it sounds really bad, but i'm not very muscially inclined, i'm sorry

but i'd take the world for you
i'd write a song just for you
i'd learn to play the guitar,
just, just for you,
you.

raaaawwrrr

2008-07-13T18:15:00.000+08:00

How often do you hold back from saying what you are thinking?
not as often as i should

Have you ever kissed someone who’s name starts with a D?
no, guys with names that start with D aren't hot enough.

Who was the last person to make you smile?
This weird little elf.

Do you have an older brother?
Older is an understatement

Have you ever kissed in the rain?
Now... that would be interesting, and suddenly you sneeze into the poor guys mouth. oh EWW.

Do you think you will be in a relationship 3 months from now?
maybe

Have you made a mistake this past week?
yes

Who was the last person you talked to last night before bed?
greg or yinto. i can't rmb

Whats the longest you’ve ever talked on the phone?
6hrs i think

Whats the first thing you think of when you hear the word “mustard”?
YELLOW HOTDOGS with flappy ears an a blue collar

Who knows you better than you know yourself?
moses

Who was the last girl you talked to?
felicia

What does the last text message say in your inbox?
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Who have you texted in the last 24 hours?
Ben, Yinto, Moses, Andre, Brendan

Are you single or taken right now?
shhhh!

Whats the closest thing to you thats liquid?
Water

Something you’re happy about?
I DID SMTH COOL!!!!!!! :D

What did you do friday night?
go for climbing and get my new toy

What are you doing tonight?
sleeping!

Where are you right now?
Somewhere really really cool.

Who else is in the room with you?
:p wouldn't you like to know

In winter, would you rather wear jackets or hoodies?
HOOOODIES!

Do you wish you were somewhere else right now?
Yes...

How long can you go without your mobile phone?
LONG! only if my msg buddy is with me.

Who did you last call babe/baby?
good question. i know who, and that person knows too!

Have you ever kissed anyone whose name started with a J?
Jonathan Rhys Meyers? yeah. Just yesterday, he was in my house and we were in my room... and....

What did you last eat?
salmon

Will you ever kiss the last person you kissed again?
yes. :D

Ever have a sleepover with the opposite sex?
Yessss..... at my house. ahha

What time did you go to sleep last night?
3 smth

What/who woke you up today?
stupid alarm

Are you excited for the future?
a little, but no at the same time. it's scary

When was the last time someone yelled at you?
everyday, thats how we communicate in my house

Things you did today
wake up, go for tuition,come home, play the guitar, go to church, come home, play the guitar, talk to ben, see ben, have dinner, talk to andre, talk to yinto, and do this silly quiz

Do you own a polo shirt?
yes.

Are you excited for winter?
YES

How old do you look?
Like a beautiful young woman. :p yeahhhh!

Where is the person you last kissed at this moment?
In the south pole with his other eflish friends

Where are your siblings?
In america, taiwan and sydney.

What are you going to do after this?
Talk on the phone, stand on my head for a bit and then go sleep

What color shirt are you wearing?
shirt? what shirt? HAHHAA. joking. it's white. it's some bunjeeeeee jumping!

Whose car were you in last?
Felicia's

What was the last thing you drank?
water

What kind of tv do you have?
uhh.. some hd flat-ish one?

What is the last thing you thought about?
fairy princeses of the world of cheeses. But the world of cheese was being attacked by the chocolate kings, and so a war erupted between them and everyone died.

I

2008-07-10T22:28:00.002+08:00

I hate it when you're so happy and then suddenly there is this pang somewhere in the vicinity of your chest. It kinda hurts, but doesn't hurt too bad. It's an annoying unpleasant feeling triggered by a thought in your head. Like a sudden realization, or regret of some sort. "Maybe i shouldn't have done that.", "What if i had done something else instead?", "Is this really what i want?". The worst bit is if your head and heart don't agree and you don't know which to listen to. Better yet, if you don't even know what you're thinking and your head is just in a total muddled mess. I mean, you could be totally happy about something, feeling all lightheaded and at peace, and then you start to thinking about the not so pleasant bits, the "what ifs" and then your heart kinda just plumits. That the bit that hurts. That dropping of the heart. It's almost a physical pain. or annoyance.

Ah. Get over it.
It's about time.
I hope this works. I really do.

milk run!

2008-07-07T20:42:00.001+08:00

2008-07-04T23:26:00.000+08:00

The day consisted of:

A bit of math
attempting to play the piano
and singing silly songs like a crazy person.

YEAHHH!

choices.

2008-06-24T05:20:00.004+08:00

I don't mind having never been born if it meant everyone was happier.
Why did you have to go and die.

She doesnt deserve this, and neither does he.

Life has a weird way of working. The chain of events that happen. And how everyone is affected by it.

if you didnt go away, this wouldn't have happened, he wouldn't be here, and neither would i. But it wouldn't matter, because maybe...just maybe everyone would be happier.

But who knows.
This sucks.

NUMBER 5!

2008-06-24T00:44:00.002+08:00

Instructions/Rules/LAW:
1. People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.

2. Tag eight people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the people whom they were tagged by. Continue this game by sending it to other people.

1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
Depends on how much i wanted him in the first place. If i was really totally crazy over him, i'd be really sad and angry. I'd bitch all day to my girlfriends and then mope a bit. Then see how it goes.

2. If you can have a dream come true, what would it be?
I'd be a princess and maybe marry prince harry. Or any other nice nice prince

3. What will your dream wedding be like?
Romantic, white, glamourous but small.

4. Are you confused as to what lies ahead of you?
Yes. Because life is scary and unpredictable. Because life never turns out the way you want it to. Also because i'm so horribly indecisive.

5. What’s your ideal lover like? What’s your ideal meal like?
Um.. Bernie.. which qn am i supposed to answer?
Ideals... Ideal lover: Funny, sweet, OF COURSE SUPER DUPER HANDSOME! Smart, and devoted.
Ideal meal: As long as the food is decent, thats good. The atmosphere is impt! by the sea! heehee.

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone? Which do you prefer, Mash potato or baked potato?
One is nothing without the other. I love my mother, and my mother loves me too. Anything just one way hurts like hell.
and uh.. mashed potaaatoo

7. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
Does love even exist?

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
Leave it be.

9. Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?
yeah. PMS

10. What do you want most in life?
Love, Family.

11. Is being tagged fun?
YES!

12. How do you see yourself in ten years time?
When i'm 27? from exactly now, in the toilet, brushing my teeth

13. Where is the place you want to go most and why?
Greece.

14. What kind of person do you think you are? What do you feel like doing now?
I am a very indecisive person. and i feel like going to sleep.

15. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
Married but poor. Actually i don't know. Being single and rich, life would be easy, but empty. Married but poor, life wouldn't be as empty but life would be really hard.

16. If you could have any animal for a pet, what would it be?
A polarbear and a siberian tiger and a snake.

17. What are one of those things which you would prefer not to do?
Homework

18. What kind of person do you think you are?
Indecisive.

19. What do you define as a bad day?
Any day that i'm moody is a bad day because everything seems even worse han it actually is.

20. If you have to choose between love (as in boy-girl relationships) and friendship, what would it be?
Friendship? That is if your friends are actually the type that will take all your nonsense no matter what. Not the type that bitch about you behind your back or come up with horrible opinions of you. But then again, isnt a bgr r/s a sort of friendship too?

Texan Sized

2008-06-23T10:51:00.002+08:00

There i was talking about how if i stayed here another week, i'll be going home super fat, and my parents are talking about moving here.

I bet i've already gained a whole lotta horrible weight here.
I MEAN WHAT TO DO WHEN THE FOOD IS GOOD AND CHEAP!?
Its inevitable.
I used to say i hated american food.. well, thats because we only went to those fast food restaurants etc where they only server burgers and all that jazz. Actually, American food kinda sucks. I guess i meant the food in America in general (inclusive of italian, chinese, japanese...)

Last sunday, we went to this restaurant called Tokyo one. Firstly, the waiter was...really hot. He was hongkong canadian. Okay, whatever. But the food was amazing. It was a japanese sushi/food buffet like you've never seen before. They had everything you could ever dream of. Even crem brule however you spell it. I dont see how that was japanese, but it was under the deserts section, so i guess it can be excused.

And just yesterday we went to this place called Cici's Pizza, which was like a pizza buffet with tons of different types of Pizza, and all for the price of 4.99.

A PIZZA BUFFET FOR LIKE $5! HELLLOOOO!

The houses here are cheap, and so are the cars. People are so damned relaxed too. I'm not saying that i could live here. Its like.. I'm so used to city life, suddenly moving here would take a lot of getting used to. But my dad was like "why don't we move here and you can finish off high school here". We've spent the past week looking at houses almost everyday, and my parents are so tempted to buy one. A HUGE NICE NICE HOUSE costs as much as a HDB flat in singapore. With those nice big lawns and 2/3 car garages. I think they're toying with the idea of coming over. Half of me wants to run away from the bad memories in Singapore, but the other half is still attached to the good ones and everything and everyone else at home.

My parents seem to really enjoy it here man. Weird.
EEEEEEEEE!

My life in my family is almost ending. 2 years, then college, then maybe get married. then my own life. Then while i'm at college, its almost like my own life already. SO I ONLY GOT 2 YEARS LEFT! OMFG!

stolen from bernie again

2008-06-23T10:29:00.003+08:00

Watching Mr and Mrs Jones at the same time. These things are fun when the only other thing to do is homework.

Going to do this in parts cos its so bloody long..

ARE YOU:
1. Perfect: Definitely not
2. Tall: Asians are generally short right..
3. In your pajamas: Kinda...
4. Left handed: Nopes.

LAST
1. Friend you saw: ANNABEL! She counted?
2. Talked to on the phone: Ben
3. Person to text you: Same person
4. Was today better than yesterday: Na..just about the same. How much can happen in Dallas?

QUESTIONS & ANSWERS:
Q: What was the first thing you did this morning when you got up?
A: Open my eyes

Q: Do you have anything bothering you?
A: School is starting

Q: What’s the last movie you watched in theaters?
A: Sex in the city

Q: Where is the last place you went?
A: Some house thats for sale

Q: Do you smile a lot?
A: Depends where i am and who im with

Q: Do you wish upon stars?
A: Sometimes..

Q: Are you a friendly person?
A: I sure hope so.

Q: Where did you sleep last night?
A: In my brother's house in Brandon's room.

Q: Why did you sleep there?
A: Because i'm half way across the world from my own bed

Q: When was the last time you cried?
A: Few days back

Q: What was your last thought before going to sleep last night?
A: Why cant i bloody get to sleep!

Q: Rate life as of right now, one being bad ten being great?
A: 6

Q: What do you hear right now?
A: The Tv..(brad pitt and angelina jolie talking) and the vacuum cleaner outside.

Q: Does anything hurt right now?
A: Does internal conflict count as pain?

Q. Are you tired?
A: Kinda..

CURRENTLY:
020. Eating? Nothing.
021. Drinking? Water
022. I’m about to? Hopefully make a call
023. Listening to? The tv and the vacuum cleaner?
024. Plans for today? It's nearly 10pm, i guess my plans for the rest of the day are to sleep
025. Waiting for? 10pm

WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE GENDER:
026. Lips or eyes? Eyes
027. Shorter or taller? Taller
028. Romantic or spontaneous? Romantically Spontaneous
029. Sensitive or loud? In the middle. Neither extreme
030. Hook-up or relationship? BOYS STINK.

HAVE YOU EVER:
031. Drank bubbles? You can drink bubbles? I would like to try that.. Wait. The gas bubbles in gassy drinks that make you burp!
032. Lost glasses? Nope.
033. Ran away from home? Thought of it..when i was like 7 and didnt get my way
034. Broken someone’s heart? I guess
035. Been arrested? No.

Weird thing i stole from Bernie's blog cos i was bored.

2008-06-22T13:25:00.004+08:00

List 5 things you would like to say to 5 different people without mentioning their names.

1. You're amazing and the past 12/13 years have been just the same. I know haven't always been there, and i've definitely taken you for granted, and i guess im too ego to say it to your face, but you're the best friend someone could have and you're someone i feel i can always go to even through the distance. You treat me all the same no matter how stupid i am, how much of an ass i am, how horrible i act, or how many mistakes i make. I love you lots and lots. Thank you for like..everything! And i definitely hope you read this. For my Twinny. I swear, you've rubbed off on me

2. I feel bad about how you are everyday. I feel hopeless at the same time, i cant do anything, and i think we've all come to the point we're too tired to continue trying. No one deserves to go through everyday like that, but at the same time, what other way is there. I hear things, and in the end, i dont know which way to go. No one deserves it. But how now?

3. See, i dont have a tennis court, or a swimming pool in my house, but i have a pond...does that count? and a street outside my house that doubles as a makeshift badminton court...I bought a shirt with a penguin on it. At least that goes in line with your festish for artic creatures. Or antartica. Whichever horrible frozen hell they come from. ily lots. :P

4. Dude, i hope we're still okay. I know our friendship has been through a lot of shit, but in the end, we always turn out okay. Even when its gotten really really bad. 4 years solid and still counting. The past few weeks/days have been weird. I dunno lah. Hope things turn out okay. and YOU should relax abit. Stop worrying about life so much. Your mom is a cool lady. I have weird quirks that i know came from you. Its like..ingrained in me already. You still and always will mean a lot to me. I know im screwed up and all, but please, don't go away.

5. YOU! the silly person i see almost everyday who thinks the world hates her when actually we all love her. Well, i do at least. YOU ROCK! Please stop saying you dont. I'm hungry. Shit...hahaha okay. Random. But you are too. ilu!

apple shorts and candy toothbrushes

2008-06-19T07:46:00.003+08:00

Party like a wok star

2008-06-18T08:56:00.003+08:00

Spending a whole month away from home is kinda weird. It's like, i'm almost forgetting what my bed feels like already. I miss my bolster and i miss my dogs. Once i get home, its immediately prep for the new term and then go to school. There wasn't any chance to hang out with my friends and all that normal jazz. I get jealous looking at all the pictures of my friends throughout the past few weeks. Its almost another week till i get back.

I made one very very big mistake. I just took out my math paper after the past few weeks of letting my brain rot. And now i'm staring it going "wth...shit... whats that squiggly line mean? i know it means smth important!"

Dallas has been quite fun. A lot more relaxed. It's busy/lazy days everyday. At least now i can choose what i want to do everyday. It's been really really hot, but today there was a huge thunderstorm and there was a power outage and an emergency warning on the radios too. The wind was like damn strong and you couldn't see anything on the roads. But it cleared out really really fast. So thats okay.

OH AND I LOVE THE WALMART HERE!
It was so effing huge, almost as big as costcos in Sanfran. They had everything! and i mean EVERYTHING. :D If only Mari were there. Then we could play hide and seek again! :p

My brother says : You're one tough cookie now.

11:11PM? Well...it's actually 6:15PM

2008-06-18T06:22:00.002+08:00

MMM...From Jose's and WeiJies blog. SO FUN!
My stupid laptop doesnt have anysongs so i'm using my ipod instead.

RULES:
1. Put Your iTunes/Windows Media Player/ETC on Shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
4. Put any comments in brackets after the song name.
5. Put this on your journal.1.

If someone says, "Is this okay?" You say?
Is it you? - Cassie
(Haha. Omg. Totally.)

2.How would you describe yourself?
Since i don't have you - Guns N' Roses
(Ummm...whats that supposed to mean)

3.What do you like in a girl/guy?
Goodbye my lover - James Blunt
(James Blunt is gay. He sounds like a girl.)

4.How do you feel today?
There and back again - Daughtry
(The music fits the mood defitnitely)

5.What is your life's purpose?
Lets all make belief - Oasis
(Yes..I want to be a fairy princess. I want to rule fairy land and have carrot houses)

6.What is your motto?
Dearly Beloved - Faith Hill

"Good mornin', Dearly Beloved
We are gathered here today
To watch two people we know make a big mistake
They'll stand up at the alter
And solemnly swear I Do
They'll be together forever'
Til they find somebody new"

(OMG. Wth. Thats not right!)

7. What do your friends think of you?
Out of reach - Gabrielle.
(I don't like this anymore.)

8. What do you think of your parents?
Pointless Nostalgia - Jamie Cullum
(That is very true. No matter how much you think about the past, it's unobtainable. Will never be able to to get it back again)

9.What do you think about very often?
Ai Qing Xuan Ya - Jay Chou
(i don't even know what that means in english.)

10.What is 2 + 2?
Funky Ass Cartoon - Electrico
(:P)

11.What do you think of your best friend?
Happens All The Time - Cold
( "Don't worry lah. It happens all the time, happens to everyone, dont think too hard about it")

12.What do you think of the person you like?
Stop The Fuckin' Car - Circa Survive

"Spinning lights, don't be scared
you have given so much more
spinning lights, take me there
he has risen, pull me under"

13.What is your life story?
Shake it off - Maria Carey
(Never let things that happen get you down...too much)

14.What do you want to be when you grow up?
Tainted Love - Marilyn Manson
(That can't be too good...)

15.What do you think of when you see the person you like?
You are, I am - Darrel Evans
(wow.. :D )

16.What will you dance to at your wedding?
I'm sorry - Flyleaf
(oh crap, i need to get rid of all these songs. Imagine headbanding at the wedding. That'd be so funny. I just hope my husband doesnt listen to the lyrics)

17.What will they play at your funeral?
Love song for a saviour - Jars of clay
(Me? A saviour? Oh why thank you!)

18.What is your hobby/interest?
Ain't no way - Chris Brown
(Thats not much of a hobby...)

19.What is your biggest fear?
Hikkus - Incubus
(I've no idea what that is, but if it were something, i'd bet it'd be scary)

20.What is your biggest secret?
Can't help falling in love with you - Elvis Presley
(Awww. :D yes yes..biggest secret)

21.What do you think of your friends?
She will be loved - Maroon 5
(Of course she will, my friends are wonderful. About the guys....i guess you guys are like girls? :p heheh)

22.What will you post this as?
11:11pm -The all american rejects
(is this supposed to be the post title?)

23.What song would you play during your first time having sex?
Did you feel the mountains tremble - Delirious
(OHHHHH. hahahah goodness. So on ah? That would be interesting)

I think i have very angry music. Oh noo...

meg's butt

2008-06-17T09:32:00.011+08:00

We went shooting today, with a guy named LARRY! Yes, Sam would be happy with that eh?

The bullseye was my second last shot. Like finally.

The last time i heard and fired a gun was in sec 1 and i totally forgot how loud they can be. We used his .45,.40 and .09 pistols and this other mega huge rifle of his that i dunno the name of, all i know is that it was loud and scary and i could feel its impact from like 3 booths away.

day i dunno what!

2008-06-12T21:25:00.001+08:00

presentinggg....MR JOHN HARVARD

fooling around in harvard

MIT!

lobsterrr

2008-06-10T10:27:00.002+08:00

"jie jieee!!"

"YESS NATT?"

today today today.

2008-06-07T10:48:00.008+08:00

that CONGRESS PLACE! (wtv ben!)
Jefferson's Memorial
View from Lincon's memorial
HERSHEY'S WORLD
Niagara

ugly blue thing.

in pyjamas

2008-06-07T10:39:00.003+08:00

BANANAS!

2008-06-02T15:13:00.003+08:00

i hate them

why.

please.

lesson number 1: Never tell your parents anything no matter how badly you want to let them into your life.

They never understand no matter how much you want them too
They never do.

NEVER.

never ever let them into your life. because it just results in pain.

Never.

wickedddddddd

2008-06-02T02:07:00.003+08:00

Rules:
1. The rules of the game get posted at the beginning.
2. Each player answers the questions about themselves.
3. At the end of the post the player then tags 5 people and posts their names, then goes to their blogs and leaves a comment, letting them know they got tagged and to ask them to play and read your blog.

Starting time: 2:07 AM [2:07PM]
Name: Charissa
Sisters: 0
Brothers: 3
Shoe size: 8
Height: 162cm

Where do you live: Singapore
Favourite drinks: Green Tea?
Favourite breakfast: Cereal!

Have you ever been on a plane?: Yeah, just a few days ago. Continental flights suck. Effing lousy stewardesses.
Swam in the ocean: Yes
Fallen asleep at school: Only when i'm up late
Broken someone's heart: I think so.
Fell off your chair: Yes....
Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call: Not all night, just most of it?
Saved e-mails: Yes, and still do

What is your room like: It's got a huge mirror, and has many cupboards
What's right beside you: Bottle of Mango Madness Snapple, My handbag and laptop case
What is the last thing you ate: Salad
Ever had chicken pox: Yes and i chased my brother around just to pass it to him
Sore throat: yes.
Stitches: Too many
Broken nose: Ouch no!

Do you believe in love at first sight: Definitely not. I doubted the existance of love for awhile, i think love at first sight is a little bit of a leap for me
Who was were the last person people you danced with: My cousin.
Last made you smile: Ben
You last yelled at: My mother, because she crosses the road like a mad woman. Many many roads in NY
Today did you:
Talk to someone you like: hahaha. YES
Kissed anyone: Some random angmoh (HHEEEHEEEE. you know thats not true)
Get sick: No
Talk to an ex: No
Miss someone: Definitely
Eat: Duh

Best feeling in the world: "the one i get when I'm with you" quote
Do you sleep with stuffed animals: No.
What's under your bed: The boogey man
Who do you really hate: Whoever is backstabbing at the moment and effing continental air stewardesses
What time is it now?: 2:14

Random:
Is there a person who is on your mind now: Yes..
Do you have any siblings: Yes.
Do you want children: Without a doubt
Do you smile often: Well, today yes, because my parents keep going "TAKE PICTURE TAKE PICTURE"
Do you like your hand-writing: Sometimes
Are your toe nails painted: Purple
Whose bed other than yours would you rather sleep in: HEEHEE.
What color shirt are you wearing now: Blue and Grey
What were you doing at 7:00 p.m. yesterday: NY time? I think i was at times square
I can't wait till: 26th of June.
When did you cry last: I'M COOL AND MYSTERIOUS! i dont cry! cough*

Are you a friendly person: Only if im met with friendly people
Do you have any pets: 2 dogs and lots of fish
Where is the person you have feelings for right now?: Half way across the world at home.
Did the last person you held hands with mean anything to you now?: Definitely
Do you sleep with the TV on?: Nope.
What are you doing right now?: This is a stupid question
Have you ever crawled through a window?: Uh huh
Can you handle the truth?: I don't think so.
Are you too forgiving?: Me thinks yes
Are you closer to your mother or father?: Mother
Who was the last person you cried in front of?: Mother?
How many people can you say you've really loved?: What is love?
Do you eat healthy?: I'd like to think so.
Have you ever cried because of something someone said to you?: Yes
If you're having a bad day, who are you most likely to go to?: My dog
Are you loud or quiet most of the time?: i don't know
Are you confident?: uh, maybe?

5 things I was doing 10 years ago:
1. poking weijin in kindergarten? wait. no. 10 years ago is primary school. I was learning STUFF in school
2. Colouring
3. Getting injections
4. Losing my hair
5. Making friends with nurses

5 things on my to-do list today:
1. Go for wicked
2. Go to china town
3. Shop
4. Walk 6 blocks to Wicked
5. Get online at 6

5 snacks I enjoy:
1. Apples
2. Oranges
3. Granola Bars
4. Chips
5. Chocolate coated Strawberries

5 things I would do if I were a billionaire:
1. Buy a plane ticket for someone now
2. Get a nice house and car
3. Help the poor!
4. Be like angelina jolie and adopt many kids
5. Be rich

5 of my bad habits:
1.saying "i dont know all the time"
2. Being OC about certain things
3. Procastinating
4. Blowing off studying
5. Being annoying

5 places I have lived in:
1. Pulau Bukom
2. Pasir Panjang
3. Kampong Baruh
4. -
5. -

5 jobs I've had:
1. I'm VERY jobless
2. -
3. -
4. -
5. -

5(3) people I tag:
NO ONE

i love ny!

2008-06-01T08:02:00.006+08:00

Maddison Square Garden

Times Square
Hotel
Maddison Square

Random street

I'm totally loving New York. Going to all the places i've only ever seen on tv. Its amazing.

I LOVE IT.

The power of colour and emotions;

2008-05-29T09:13:00.003+08:00

Thiru says i look emo. hahaha but i cut my hair. so it can't be true anymore!

I'm leaving tonight.. for almost a month long trip to the states. I've no idea how i'm gonna study or do my work while i'm there. It involves lugging very heavy books half way across the country. Thank got for technolongy and laptops. Thank god for the internet.

What i am so not looking forward to is the extremely long plane ride, and the jetlag. It's going to be absolutely horrible. Also, it kinda sucks spending the entire holidays away from my friends. I mean, this would be the perfect time to catch up, hang out and just have time away from work and school together. But NOOOO..i'll be spending it with my dear parents who will probably spend half the trip fighting or complaining about each other. oh yay!

The weather is going to be screwy. Apparently it's pretty cool in the east (ie. New York etc) like 11-ish degrees celcius. But once we get to dallas, it's gonna be killer at about 40 degrees-ish. THATS A BIG BIG DIFFERENCE. It's freaking worse than Singapore. People leave the country to get out of the heat and i'm prancing right into it. yay again!

I guess i'm looking forward to America. I mean..I get to see my brother again. Haven't seen him in years. It's our very very very first visit to him even though he's been there for over 17 years. Yes, he left before i was born. oh yay yay.

I'm going to miss a lot of things over the next month
I pray somethings don't change
and i pray that somethings really do.

I'll miss tennis courts and polarbears. Thats for sure.

i wish people would be more accepting.

2008-05-25T22:17:00.001+08:00

<3!

2008-05-25T21:28:00.001+08:00

WEIJIE ROCKS! :D :D :D
thanks. :)

2008-05-18T23:36:00.002+08:00

HELLO.

I'm bored. your blog is two days dead:P you're an idiot. (:

27 days.

gay fetishes are not nice. well maybe they are; especially in your case.

I DUNNO :D

okay nevermind I have nothing real to say oh well.

byebye <3

blue shirt, science centre and Ij fiesta day!

2008-05-16T22:31:00.004+08:00

Blue shirt day!

Funky Mirrors

Awww so pretty

A class full of boys.

oooohi miss you..

ah %#**

2008-05-14T21:52:00.000+08:00

THIS BITES.
seriously

vicky bicky micky wicky

2008-05-13T21:28:00.002+08:00

HELLO!

WHEEEEEEEEEEE!
hahahahahah

i love ryans dogs!
dutchess is scary and vicky is cute.

wheee.

HAHAHAHAH!
gay fetishes. hehe.

Sid is a stalker.
Kathy wants me to plan her a "SUPRISE BDAY PARTY"
kathy: sa! plan me a suprise birthday party!

and sea horses are the coolest things ever

studying with god and my razor blade

2008-05-12T22:58:00.001+08:00

Thank crossfade.

mcgriddles.

2008-05-11T22:26:00.001+08:00

LIANNE! YOU ARE AN ASS!

hahaha.

mmm. st iggiessss is an interesting place.

yes yes.

i am full, and i feel fat. yay!

2008-05-07T22:05:00.002+08:00

ah screw..

little by little

2008-05-06T23:38:00.005+08:00

It's going to be different.
Not the way i knew it.

Hmm you're right. It's about trust.

2008-05-06T22:55:00.000+08:00

I AM SLEEPY

sunday afternoons

2008-05-04T16:53:00.011+08:00

Chariss [a] says:
IFEELLIKETYPINGINCAPSWITHNOSPACINGS

Ben; says:
HAHAOKAYFINELET'SBOTHTYPEINCAPSWITHNOSPACINGS

Chariss [a] says:
OHDAMNTHISISGONNABEHARDTOREAD

Ben; says:
THISISRETARDED(:

Chariss [a] says:
MMMIGOTITK!IMDAMNPROATTHISPLEASE.ITSCALLEDSKILLYO!

Ben; says:
SKILL..THAT'SWHATYOUCALLITEH

Chariss [a] says:
HAHAHAHA.SUPERCALIFRAGALISTICEXPIELIDOSCIOUS!ILIKEGREENCOWSINCOWBOYHATSTHATEATDONUTSWITHMILOANDICECREAM.ILIKEWAFFLESTOO

Ben; says:
HAHAHAILIKEWAFFLESTOOBUTITHINKTHATCALFORNIAINTHESUNISVERYINTERESTINGTOOBUT
ITALYINTHEAUTUMNISINFINITELYBETTERTHANER.DAMNIT.ICAN'TTHINKMORETHANTHAT.
HAHAILIKEWAFFLESASMUCHASYOU!!MILOANDICECREAMISANICECOMBINATION(:

dance dance dance

2008-05-03T15:48:00.002+08:00

went for RJ's dance night last night. It was amazing. i didnt know they were that good.
Andrew was so excited throughout the whole thing. haha. He was damn amusing. never met someone who got so excited about a dance night before. :D hahah last night was loads of fun.

went to holland village after to get drinks and we just hung around there for awhile after that.

hahaha then....
thenn...
thennn..

hahahaha.
OMG. hahahahhaa.

IM SLEEPY.

real men in dresses. YEAH

2008-05-01T22:21:00.008+08:00

Okay, i shall return to my old method of blogging..

the "state everything i did today" method. and this is because i am bored.

SO! i woke up this morning and lay in bed, just because its a holiday, and just because i can laze around in bed. Then i got my lazy ass up and did math, cos of the math test tmr. Then my nephews came over and were eating mash potatoes on my bed. That was kinda worrying.

Showered, changed, left my house at 1145 when i was supposed to meet Ben at 1200. BUT! As usual, i cabbed. AND I GOT THERE ON TIME. :P Thank goodness for nets. Met Ben then went to sakae for lunch. We ordered some weird stuff and had soup in a tea pot. Soup in a tea pot. WHO THE HELL HAS SOUP IN A TEA POT?

Met weijin and yinto and weijins senior at cine and watched iron man. During which i had a lot of fun terrorisng yinto with the lethal popcorn.

Went over to NYDC to get a drink and do our presentation for tmr's assembly on the level four thing. Yinto abandonned us after awhile. thanks dude.

went to sweelee with ben after that and saw gabriel goh.. which was cool, since i havent seen him in ages.

ah screw. this is boring. it's weird to blog like this. for me at least..

the rest of the day:

Bus to vivo
Press the stop bell thing
Get off the bus at vivo
Take passport photo
Window shop
Wait for mom
Get in car
Go home
Dinner (uneventful dinner)
Watch joseph and the technicolour coat musical video thing that our school put up last year
Laugh at Ben in a dress and pretty make up
Laugh at Caleb in a dress and pretty make up and doing twirlies and dancing on stage like a real man
Sms Caleb to tell him he is a real man.
Laugh at them even more
Caleb calls and goes "omg, you didn't watch it"
Laugh at him some more.

and if i continue on like this it'll just go on forever. so i shall stop

byebye

the things we get up to at school

2008-04-24T14:28:00.002+08:00

2008-04-23T21:34:00.000+08:00

I IS HAPPY

FOURONNNEEEE

HELLLO!

GO GO POWER RANGERRRSSS!

2008-04-21T19:29:00.005+08:00

I AM HAPPY.

what made my day:

Savy's new hair
I MET A POWER RANGER TODAYYY! (and he was even my favourite colour!)

Okay, my excitement over the power ranger thing. HOW MANY PPL GET TO MEET EX POWER RANGERS? i swear. it was the coolest thing all day! hahaha. okay, fine.. i know i'm being stupid. I used to love power rangers btw.. if that explains anything..

I am also the dumbest thing alive. I was supposed to do my LONG over due english essay the moment i got home, only i just realised that i didnt even bring it home.
Good job Charissa... really..

if time could stop...

2008-04-18T23:39:00.007+08:00

THE THINGS I MISS:

I miss...

Hanging out at Mps, the 6 of us...

Strange gay happy moments

Pigging out on their food

Ferdi's weirdness

The three of us.. tsk. that player

I also miss

Miss Uppalapaaattiiiiiii

Our Amazing packed lunches

The brokeback, blurback and ever slow xiu

OH MY EDDIE

And random moments like these

I loved

Camwhoring with xiu

Gretchen's strange humour

MR JIOW!

Our childish moments

Wearing weird things on my head.

Just plain being a retard

and i miss

The past

Pigging out guiltlessly

Embarassing ourselves in public
Our candid moments

Things that made me smile

the things we got up to at school

I think i let these moments pass me by too fast. And i never really missed it all until now. It's all come and gone, and we can't get it back.
I miss it all so much.
But things are so different now.

God.. i miss.. i miss so so much.

2008-04-14T21:46:00.000+08:00

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

2008-04-09T22:32:00.000+08:00

IM DAMN HAPPY. (:

SEVENTEEN!

never expected my family to make my day

YAY!

BIRTHDAY PARTY.

2008-04-06T18:02:00.003+08:00

PARTY :D

Jose in the midst of getting dunked

Party people

fun fun. :D <3s

2008-04-02T21:11:00.000+08:00

HAHA

Lithium

2008-03-31T19:49:00.002+08:00

Lithium, don't want to lock me up inside.
Lithium, don't want to forget how it feels without...
Lithium, I want to stay in love with my sorrow.
Oh, but God, I want to let it go.

Come to bed, don't make me sleep alone.
Couldn't hide the emptiness, you let it show.
Never wanted it to be so cold.
Just didn't drink enough to say you love me.

I can't hold on to me,
Wonder what's wrong with me.

Lithium, don't want to lock me up inside.
Lithium, don't want to forget how it feels without...
Lithium, I want to stay in love with my sorrow.

Don't want to let it lay me down this time.
Drown my will to fly.
Here in the darkness I know myself.
Can't break free until I let it go.
Let me go.

Darling, I forgive you after all.
Anything is better than to be alone.
And in the end I guess I had to fall.
Always find my place among the ashes.

I can't hold on to me,
Wonder what's wrong with me.

Lithium, don't want to lock me up inside.
Lithium, don't want to forget how it feels without...
Lithium, ...stay in love with my sorrow.
I'm gonna let it go.

australia in a nut shell

2008-03-28T22:56:00.006+08:00

I'm too lazy to blog about sydney and melbourne. shall leave these pictures.

go figure.

all i can say is that it was really fun.(:

jervis bay
Melbourne comedy festival
weii!
helicopter over the 12 apostles
by the coast.
jervis bay snorkling
at the place where i went hang gliding like 2 years ago.

Hand stannndd!

opera bar
the wonderful 3 sisters at blue mountains, isnt the view just awesome

jenolan caves.
peeing on the tree
melbourne state library, kai me wei

2008-03-03T21:04:00.000+08:00

4 months to go!!

ahhh

blown out of proportion

2008-03-02T17:08:00.004+08:00

I think we're just mostly acting like jealous boyfriends and girlfriends. If you get what i mean.Its like when someone you were really close to get closer to someone else. Then you stand by and watch. I guess it's a lot to do with jealously, which of course is really stupid. But it's a human feeling hey.

It's a good thing that you guys called us up and brought it out into the open first before it got too far. To be honest, most of us weren't really bitching. We just brought it up with one another to see if we weren't the only ones who felt that way. And it turned out that we weren't. (we're all a bunch of jealous ppl. haha. see lah.) It was sort of an unspoken common feeling that went around, and i think we didn't have the guts to bring it up with you guys. (so again, thanks for calling up last night).

The agree with most of the stuff on the blog post. But i dont agree that we were making a big deal out of nothing. I don't think it was nothing. Might've been to you guys, but i guess us being sensitive dummys felt otherwise. It's like watching your best friend become bestfriends with someone else, of course you'll feel a little negativity and sadness that you're not the only one anymore. Does that make sense? It's something we all noticed as a group, that there was this other group now within our group. I guess we all reacted the way we did was because it happened so suddenly and all this was suddenly thrown upon us. Its just us desperately trying to cling on to what we had the first week of school (god, im doing too much of "all my sons". i'm becoming a kate) Of course like you said, it's part and parcel of our lives, and it does take a little getting used to. And these feelings that we feel about the whole situation are part and parcel of our lives too. It's just something we have to deal with and talk out.

Everything that's happened so far is inevitable and i'm not saying that it's wrong.
I guess you gotta look at it all from different perspectives to see how everyone feels.
I know you guys weren't doing it on purpose, and of course didn't want to make us all feel this way. But sometimes we do things too without noticing. Something i tend to do all the time, and it ends up affecting others. I know you all weren't trying to shut us out and your words and actions weren't meant to make us feel that way, but inevitably, we did feel shut out.

I think this thing has been blown out of proportion a little.

Basically i don't think the thing with you guys is wrong
and i dont think us feeling the way we did/do is wrong either.
I guess all we gotta do now is try to be more aware of each others feelings.

It's something we all have to come to a mutal understanding with
and something we have to learn to let go of.
cos if we can't handle something like this now, we're gonna have a lot of problems in the future.

but i do think cliques are retarded.
i prefer to use the term, uh.. group of friends. see. then everyone are friends! hahaha so lame. omg.

i love you guys too

LOTS LOTS LOTS.

i'm not one bit angry k.

we're all just a bunch of drama mamas.

random:

my nephew calls me a chiwawan bitch

(dont ask me what thats supposed to mean.)

:(

2008-03-01T11:08:00.001+08:00

OMG.
a week full of tests..
what a way to end the term.

GAH

econs,
chinese,
chem,
math...

GAHHH

but apart from that... CAN'T WAIT FOR KRABI!

and i got a new cam. hahaha

2008-02-08T23:07:00.000+08:00

cue confusion?

i guess it's my fault.
i don't know what to do or think.

i'm sorry im like this, dee.

fun fun. ;p

2008-02-07T10:37:00.000+08:00

Hey Joe...

2008-02-04T19:13:00.000+08:00

Let me start off first with :

I LOVE SCHOOL.
I'm so happy where i am, right now, i don't think i'd ever dream of giving it up for anything else.

They say being in a school like this, there isn't any culture. Thats not true. We are the culture. Sure, we're different from the rest of the school, but that makes us special. We're probably the most bonded level throughout the school. Only 50 of us, but 50 really close kids. THERE'S A LOT OF LOVE YO!!

It's not just the people that are fun, but the lessons are pretty good too. Sure, the homework takes a bit more effort and thought. But there are really really nice people to help out when you're stuck. AHEM. (:

People ask: "So which school did you go to?"
And i go: "SJII"
Then they give a weird look then smile. It's one of those "huh? why go to such a school for? there are better schools. Why you wasting your time." I guess they don't know yet how wonderful a school it is. I guess it's up to us to make a name for the it. The teachers are wonderful, and the people are even more wonderful.

It's only been a month, but it feels like i've known these people for even longer.
haha. Its not that big of a jump going from a single sex school to a coed school.. I guess it's cos SJI guys are like girls! :p haha kidding. And there isnt much of a culture shock either, not like how our seniors say it is when they go off to the various JCs.

I LOVE SCHOOL.

Chinese New Year is coming.
Reasons to hate it and love it.
Looking forward to it, but it's got crappy memories.
AH. screw. CHINESE NEW YEAR...YAYY! (:

Krabi in a month. whooo. (:

I LOVE SCHOOL.

Stressed, but happy. (:

AND...I'M GONNA DROP CHINESE. I DONT CARE.

There. Matilda..i blogged. HAPPPY? :D

2008-01-25T21:01:00.000+08:00

hi sa, i updated my link.
mari.

2008-01-13T19:02:00.001+08:00

SAJC orientation 08 :lost

2008-01-05T16:45:00.000+08:00

MY INCREDIBLES FAMILY!

Iroqouis. <3

imma saint yoo. ;p

2007-12-24T01:33:00.000+08:00

take me out of it please
dont keep me in the middle
don''t make me take sides
you know i can't
you're fucking killing me

DO YOU HAVE COOTIES? HAHAHAHHAA

2007-12-11T22:07:00.000+08:00